It began as energy. Well, energy and doubt. Sonething that had been needling in the lack of my mind all day. A cumulative thing, pressing and burrowing. An awareness of inferiority.
Then the event happened. Unexpected. Startling. The energy increased. It was a buzz under my skin, settled as a pit in my stomach. No. That's not right. Burning with a need to get out. Pressing inside skin.
I shoved back. Contained I could ignore it. There was no functioning. No progress, just the struggle.
Breaking free it pressed against me. All directions no way out because it was out. Overwhelming. Suffocating. Leave me alone!
Flapping arm and clicking bracelet keep me from clawing through my skin. Go away. Go away. Get out. Leave me be.
Hot showers and piles of books. Pain and relaxation. Go away. Go away. I have no tine for you. Feelings swell. No sleep. No rest.
Anxiety will not leave me.
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